Summer begins! ...And it's a busy one./:

Hi, everyone! I feel like my summer has truly begun since I came home from spending a week, volunteering with a special needs camp. I HATE BEING AWAY FROM HOME. However, I enjoyed spending time with my camper. He was older, and his disabilities were very mild. Therefore, I was able to let loose and be a kid with him. It was really fun. My co-counselor was very good with our camper, which is expected because he has a child. (Andhewascute.) But that doesn't mean I'm going to leave my boyfriend! I'm going to say it right now for anyone who needs it: I think it's okay to look and even fantasize about other people while being in a relationship. It doesn't mean it's always serious. However, I do like that my boyfriend does not do that. Say I have a double standard, but I like the way we are. I do get very jealous. He does, too, but honestly, there's nothing wrong with it. That's just my opinion, but I think it's something for everyone to think about. ANYWAY, there were other cute counselors! One of them looked like Dell from Private Practice (Chris Lowell).

That was very important to point out. And after looking up a picture of Dell, it's important to upload a picture of Cooper! Charcoop is my favorite. Cooper is beautiful, and I want to be Charlotte, and I'd love triplets and babies in general. That run-on was totally worth it, by the way.

(Charlotte and Cooper in order to point out how cute Cooper is but also spoil us with a cute couple picture)

(A true CharCoop picture because they are HOT)

(And a picture of Charlotte; Cooper; Mason, Cooper's son from a one-night stand that he finds out about later in life; and THE COOPLETS!!!!!!)

Now, why is my summer busy? I started my application to medical school. I'm stuck on coming up with my list of volunteerism. I'm scared to approach it and forget something, especially how long I was there. I also only have fifteen slots, which seemed like a good-ish thing--less I have to remember, right--but it will be less hours for me because I was only told last semester that we should find one place to steadily volunteer at. Now, I know why. The admissions person said it was okay that I volunteered for many different things. He didn't even tell me, "Ooh, that's more complicated." He said something along the lines of, "Yes, that's fine!" Now, I see why he said one place steadily, though. I wish I knew this when I started college! I wish I would have been reminded to write down everything I volunteered for, also. I feel like maybe someone told me to, but I don't remember someone doing that. ANYWAY--I also have to register for a parking decal for my vehicle for this school year. I have to research Tennessee and Texas medical schools and choose one from each state in order to give myself more options in case I can't get into the medical school here at home that I want. Fun fact about Texas medical schools: The entire state has its own primary application instead of the AMCAS. How crazy is that? I know Texas is huge, but it's still surprising to me--almost ridiculous, honestly. I have to find a job so that I have people interaction hours for medical school. That is very important to them. I need to do that soon. I'm thinking of either a waitress at a nice restaurant or a front desk clerk(?) at a hotel. I was told from a friend who works at hotels that they're less open to summer-only workers, that is what I will be. I might also have to retake MCAT for my last shot. Last shot for the whole year, and most medical schools seem to only take your most recent score instead of your highest--grrr. I think I'll go now and possibly research into medical schools more and study more for MCAT. I started a tiny bit. 

Please, wish me luck into getting into medical school, especially the one of my dreams! Good luck to all of you in everything you're doing! Leave a comment, sharing your goals and dreams, if you'd like!(:

I'm done!!!!!

I'm done with school for the semester, yay! I finished Wednesday around 11. That's when I took my last final. My grades were all posted yesterday morning. My incomplete is even completed now! Next, I have to copy and paste all my grades to Word documents for my records. Then, I have to finish my thank you notes for the semester.

Here are my grades.

I'm so upset about them, but this semester was tough. So much has been going on at home since I started school. There's nothing wrong with my family just being busy helping out friends in hard times. It hurts to see your friends hurt. It piles up semester after semester, and I think between that, commuting an hour there and back every day (I love my big family. I didn't want to leave them. My parents have commuted that far away from work for almost ten years now, so it never seemed like that big of a deal to me.), and still not having learned time management in a highly demanding major and all my extracurricular involvement, I think I got close to my breaking point this semester, and my grades show it. It's okay, though. I do a lot, and it's all for the greater good. I'm helping others instead of being self-centered. It will take time for me to cope with not being able to graduate at the top of my class from college (one of my goals) and not being able to graduate with the highest honors and that there will be people at my graduation with better grades than me. Since I'm applying to medical school, I need to remain competitive. Also, a little competition is healthy. It keeps you motivated. I don't do a crazy amount of things with my life. School is one of the most important things to me, so my biggest goals were always there. I think I'm growing up, though, and part of that is realizing that even though school is important, there's more. There's family, friends, a career, and me. My health and my happiness are priorities among friends, family, and a career to support myself. I think I don't acknowledge that as I should. I know that I should be happy and healthy, but I don't always actively work on it. I remember thinking many times this semester that I was not happy. Of course, I'm not going to be happy when I'm stressed. This semester was very stressful. Now, however, I am very happy. I do want to continue the journey on which I am going. I still want to be an OB/GYN. I still want to be with guy I'm with forever and raise a family together. I still want all of that. One of my bad habits is letting stress cloud everything. I accidentally manifest my stress into other things, such as my relationship and my goals. I let it overflow and think that all of my life and decisions are making me unhappy just because I am stressed with school, and that is not so. I need to learn compartmentalization. I need to learn time management, and I need to continue to remember to live in the present.

There's a little life lesson for you mixed with an update about where I am right now.(:

Blogsick

Hi, everyone! I'm feeling blogsick. I want to blog, blog, blog, but I have so much schoolwork! Finals start Thursday, but my first one is Friday. I have much work to catch up on, also. I should also get my preliminary MCAT scores back. Preliminary scores are percentiles but not specific numbers, which is okay because the medical school I want to attend is using percentiles. I need to be in the fiftieth percentile or higher. Let's see what I get! AAMC is sending out the preliminary scores so that we know whether we need to retake the exam and have time to start studying and register. I really hope I don't need to take it again. I've taken it two out of the three times we're allowed in a year. Wish me luck, y'all.(:

I wanted to drop in yesterday, but I didn't. I wanted to share the wonderful feeling I experienced yesterday of finally hearing a lyric in a song correct after listening to the song many times. It feels something like this, right?Dead Trees. Pick it up in stores or download it below by clicking on the picture below.

I have a terrible time hearing lyrics in music. For me, I feel like the vocals and instruments start to blend together, so I can hear three and four possibilities in one word. I was listening to "Black and White" by From First to Last yesterday. The song is from their new album Dead Trees. Pick up a physical copy online or in stores, or download it from iTunes by clicking the picture below.(: (Edit: I did a thing to add a link to iTunes to the picture! I know that it's not very high-tech. I can do better, but it still excites me! I feel fancy and efficient--cool things!!)

The album is SO GOOD. I love it. It even includes bonus tracks of the band remaking some of their popular older songs. The remakes are so good, and I was a fan back in 2009/2010. That's not from the beginning, but it's still a long time. If an old fan can accept it, it must be good.(; The band now consists of Spencer Sotelo, Matt Good, Travis Richter, Taylor Larson, Matt Manning, and Ernie Slenkovich. When I was biggest into From First to Last, I believe the members were Sonny Moore, Matt Good, Travis Ritcher, and Derek Bloom. When I was looking through all the members, Matt Manning sounds familiar, but I can't remember for sure, so my "original memebers" are Sonny, Matt Good, Derek, and Travis. Therefore, two of my original members are still there. I think Matt and Sonny will always be my favorites, and Matt probably is my favorite over Sonny since he's still there. Anyway, the lyric I finally heard was "Sometimes, I'm a fucked up mess without you" (from "Black and White"). I had trouble hearing "fucked up." I kept thinking it was "four ton," which is very random to say the least, lol. Then, when I was listening to it on my laptop while folding clothes (as opposed to my vehicle speakers connected to my phone or headphones connected to my phone), a slower part of the song said it, and commence monkey face.(:

It is currently 9:37 P.M., so I need to get ready for bed so that I have enough sleep to have the energy to get all my work done tomorrow AND START STUDYING FOR MY FINALS, AHH!!!!!!!!!

Bye, thanks for reading!